Week 12

11+4

I'm feeling much better these days. No constant nausea. It's only the whiff of certain things that will turn my stomach and even then I don't always heave (although I did have to run to the loo all of a sudden a week ago and be sick).

I'm not so tired now either. It's nice. Even though Noah's been unwell and unsettled at night I've been getting to bed at a decent hour and sleeping well when asleep. It'll still take me an hour to get back to sleep when I give in to the urge to wee though!

I just feel so much more relaxed after seeing baby on the scan. Safe almost. It still feels early to tell people though. I don't know why. It seems strange thinking about telling people again but we have told a few more people. I'm not looking forward to all the 'Bet you'd like a girl' and 'what would you prefer?' comments. I honestly don't mind!!!! I'd love to have a girl as, after me always saying I'd like lots of children, I think this'll be the last one. It'd be nice to have a girlie daughter friend and to do the whole pink thing. At the same time I'd love another boy - we wouldn't have to buy too many clothes and money's tight, lol!! Also we have chosen a boy's name that we love and is almost definite (just have to ask somebody's permission, lol!!) but are still struggling with girl's name. I don't really want to call a child a name I just think is ok but will have to because I can't think of anything else!! I have my 20wk scan on 20th November and I just don't know whether or not to find out. Simon wants to but I can't decide. We found out what we're were having when expecting Noah but only as Mum was so poorly and wasn't sure if she'd survive until the birth and wanted to be able to bond with her grandchild while she could. Because we knew he was a boy, everything we bought for him is blue and boyish! We have very little neutral clothing! I don't want to buy stuff I don't need but I don't want my little girls first outfit to be an aeroplane babygro!!! Aaaaaaarrrrggh. It's hard!! If I did find out I'd want to keep it a secret from all the sticky-beaks but don't know if I could!

Week 11

I had my dating scan today!

Phew, there's a baby in there! Phew, it had a heartbeat!

The whole thing was sooo quick this time - I was in and out of the hospital in ten minutes!! Baby is measuring 4cm and I am EXACTLY the number of weeks/days I thought I was! But I can still hardly believe I got a positive result 10 days after conception!!!

Anyway, I'm 10+6 and due 8th April (although they never even mentioned dates, or filled in my notes - just scanned me and sent me off with my photos!).

Noah was in a stunned silence watching the sonographer (or 'snog'rapher as she called herself!) squirt (hot!) gel on my naked tummy and prod me with the scanner - he was good as gold!

Next scan is 20th November. I'm happy to know everything's ok so far but still hope the 20wk goes ok as that's the biggie for detecting any problems.

Week 10

9+1

I had my booking in appointment today. I've got a really friendly, bonkers MW called Jules who was lovely and made me feel so proud as she said how good Noah's speech is for his age! So I did my wee, had my bloods done, went through all the boring forms with her etc. They do all these additional blood tests now (without having to take more blood) as lots of diseases are cropping up. She also said she'd test me for Chicken Pox immunity as an extra as I work with children and it can be dangerous for pg women. I don't think there's a time we DON'T have chicken pox at school!! Hope I'm immune otherwise I'll be having loads of time off!

They're quite big on home births at my new surgery. They can't 'encourage' it but give it a huge amount of support - even have birthing pools you can borrow for free. I'm not sure it's for me but I'm not ruling it out yet. We'll see. I like the safeness of being in a hospital!

I've declined the extra screening again this time for Down's etc. And hopefully I'll be getting a scan in the next 2-4 wks due to my mad cycles and how my due date varies by 5wks depending on whether you go by my LMP or when I reckon I ovulated.

Still feeling grotty. I had a couple of days where I felt fine, which really worried me, lol but then it's hit me back with a vengance since. I also had some funny little crampy niggles last night which I'm putting down to things stretching.

I think that's it. All still very non-eventful!

Week 9

8+2

I feel horrible. Still not being sick but just feel pants all the time. The evening are the worst. I get to about 4pm and the nausea REALLY hits me and I'm incapable of doing anything. Simon's having to sort out tea, bath Noah etc. etc. It's a struggle to stay awake until even 8pm. Working three days this week has nearly finished me off!! Lightweight.

Week 8

7+1

All much the same so far this week. Except the dry heaving has started. Certain, actually MOST, smells are affecting me badly and I spend most of the day doing 'sick frog' impressions, heaving with all my might and no reward into the loo! Have had nothing come up yet though apart from a bit of tasty stomach acid (which I can taste constantly!). I feel most sick when hungry, but even worse just after eating.

I'm not as tired as I was although sleep still comes easily when I take a few minutes to put my feet up and shut my eyes while Noah naps. Think I've just got into the habit now!!

The MW appointment is booked for a fortnight's time. I might just have to take another test before then just to check I really am pregnant again! I'm still not convinced!

Week 7

6+1

The quesiness has started this week. It's there in the background all day but quite subtle most of the time. It gets worse when I get particularly hungry but is even worse after I eat (which I have to do little and often!). A few times a day the nausea surges and I have to sit down with my head in my hands for 15 minutes or so until it passes, telling myself not to be sick!! The retching hasn't started yet but I don't think it'll be long. Smells are really starting to turn my stomach.

I'm still tired but managing to nap for about an hour each day. I can't seem to sleep at night though. It takes me ages to drop off and then I toss and turn and wake all night. I'm not even finding that I'm needing the loo so much so it's not that. I mean, when I wake I need the loo so get up but it's not being desperate that's waking me! I still have a dodgy tummy. Each time I need to go my tummy grumbles and I feel a bit shaky afterwards but I'm keeping my fluids topped up so know I'm ok!

Apart from that I just have a few lovely spots!!

Week 6

5wks 1 day

Still such early days. Still doesn't feel like it's actually real. Still don't have a smidgen of a symptom (morning sickness, sore boobs etc) and I'm beginning to think the tiredness is just because I'm lazy! The only day I did feel sick was the day Simon was ill - but who wouldn't feel sick listening to and smelling somebody else feel sick all night!!

I feel totally different with this pregnancy than I did with Noah. I think with Noah I allowed myself to get excited as I though 'well, I've miscarried once, surely it won't happen again this time'. Stupid I know, but luckily there was no need to worry. This time I'm thinking the other way round - 'I had such a perfect, healthy pregnancy with Noah, surely it's about time I had a turn at something going wrong again'. Such a negative attitude!!

I just know I'm not going to believe I'm actually pregnant until I've had my 12wk scan and know the baby is ok. I just feel sooo normal! I know I shouldn't complain but I almost feel like somebody was tampering with all the digital ClearBlue pregnancy tests in the factory so they'd all come up with 'Pregnant' for a laugh!!

I don't feel worried though. Just nothingy!

Week 4

3wks 5 days

I did have a slight inkling before taking the test that I could be pregnant but I didn't really believe it. I only thought there was a possibility as the night we stayed in a Travelodge type place half way back up France I had a rather 'naughty' dream and got all hot and bothered in my sleep. I had this ALL the time when pregnant with Noah so wondered if it meant anything!

I haven't really had any symptoms yet. Saying that - what a difference a positive result makes. You start to imagine all kinds of thing! Do I have a headache? Is that nausea swimming around in my tummmy or just nervous excitement? Am I exhausted because I'm pregnant or becuase I've just got back from a fortnight on holiday and need to catch up?!! I think it's safe to say I've been rather emotional!

I'm not going to the Dr yet. Going to wait a couple of weeks before popping in (the surgery is right next door!). We had to change surgeries when we moved and although I've registered I've had no need to go yet! Noah's not even seen the HV as I can't get hold of her. Ah well. I still feel so much like it's not really true. I feel so normal! I'd quite like some symptoms to kick in just to reassure myself that all is well!!

New beginnings

I blogged for a long time before stopping when my first son was born last January. I started a new blog then, purely to talk about and record his life. I didn't have time for two blogs with a newborn in my life so left my personal blog to rot!

Well, that newborn is now 19 months old and we've just discovered he will have a little brother or sister to join him in April 2008. I blogged throughout my pregnancy with my son (and a pregnancy beforehand which sadly ended in miscarriage) and I want to do the same this time round. I want to remember it all and have a record for the new baby.

Eventually, if all things go well, the name of this blog will change. My son's blog is called 'Noodles'. His name is Noah and we call him Noah Noodles. The title just worked for a blog about him. When this baby is born we'll have to see whether it's a boy or a girl, and what his/her name is so I can change the name and template to suit them. For now it's named after me and anyone who knows me, especially my old blogging buddies, will understand why I chose a template with dragonflies!

So this is me. Beginning. Again.