Week 9

8+2

I feel horrible. Still not being sick but just feel pants all the time. The evening are the worst. I get to about 4pm and the nausea REALLY hits me and I'm incapable of doing anything. Simon's having to sort out tea, bath Noah etc. etc. It's a struggle to stay awake until even 8pm. Working three days this week has nearly finished me off!! Lightweight.

Week 8

7+1

All much the same so far this week. Except the dry heaving has started. Certain, actually MOST, smells are affecting me badly and I spend most of the day doing 'sick frog' impressions, heaving with all my might and no reward into the loo! Have had nothing come up yet though apart from a bit of tasty stomach acid (which I can taste constantly!). I feel most sick when hungry, but even worse just after eating.

I'm not as tired as I was although sleep still comes easily when I take a few minutes to put my feet up and shut my eyes while Noah naps. Think I've just got into the habit now!!

The MW appointment is booked for a fortnight's time. I might just have to take another test before then just to check I really am pregnant again! I'm still not convinced!

Week 7

6+1

The quesiness has started this week. It's there in the background all day but quite subtle most of the time. It gets worse when I get particularly hungry but is even worse after I eat (which I have to do little and often!). A few times a day the nausea surges and I have to sit down with my head in my hands for 15 minutes or so until it passes, telling myself not to be sick!! The retching hasn't started yet but I don't think it'll be long. Smells are really starting to turn my stomach.

I'm still tired but managing to nap for about an hour each day. I can't seem to sleep at night though. It takes me ages to drop off and then I toss and turn and wake all night. I'm not even finding that I'm needing the loo so much so it's not that. I mean, when I wake I need the loo so get up but it's not being desperate that's waking me! I still have a dodgy tummy. Each time I need to go my tummy grumbles and I feel a bit shaky afterwards but I'm keeping my fluids topped up so know I'm ok!

Apart from that I just have a few lovely spots!!

Week 6

5wks 1 day

Still such early days. Still doesn't feel like it's actually real. Still don't have a smidgen of a symptom (morning sickness, sore boobs etc) and I'm beginning to think the tiredness is just because I'm lazy! The only day I did feel sick was the day Simon was ill - but who wouldn't feel sick listening to and smelling somebody else feel sick all night!!

I feel totally different with this pregnancy than I did with Noah. I think with Noah I allowed myself to get excited as I though 'well, I've miscarried once, surely it won't happen again this time'. Stupid I know, but luckily there was no need to worry. This time I'm thinking the other way round - 'I had such a perfect, healthy pregnancy with Noah, surely it's about time I had a turn at something going wrong again'. Such a negative attitude!!

I just know I'm not going to believe I'm actually pregnant until I've had my 12wk scan and know the baby is ok. I just feel sooo normal! I know I shouldn't complain but I almost feel like somebody was tampering with all the digital ClearBlue pregnancy tests in the factory so they'd all come up with 'Pregnant' for a laugh!!

I don't feel worried though. Just nothingy!

Week 4

3wks 5 days

I did have a slight inkling before taking the test that I could be pregnant but I didn't really believe it. I only thought there was a possibility as the night we stayed in a Travelodge type place half way back up France I had a rather 'naughty' dream and got all hot and bothered in my sleep. I had this ALL the time when pregnant with Noah so wondered if it meant anything!

I haven't really had any symptoms yet. Saying that - what a difference a positive result makes. You start to imagine all kinds of thing! Do I have a headache? Is that nausea swimming around in my tummmy or just nervous excitement? Am I exhausted because I'm pregnant or becuase I've just got back from a fortnight on holiday and need to catch up?!! I think it's safe to say I've been rather emotional!

I'm not going to the Dr yet. Going to wait a couple of weeks before popping in (the surgery is right next door!). We had to change surgeries when we moved and although I've registered I've had no need to go yet! Noah's not even seen the HV as I can't get hold of her. Ah well. I still feel so much like it's not really true. I feel so normal! I'd quite like some symptoms to kick in just to reassure myself that all is well!!

New beginnings

I blogged for a long time before stopping when my first son was born last January. I started a new blog then, purely to talk about and record his life. I didn't have time for two blogs with a newborn in my life so left my personal blog to rot!

Well, that newborn is now 19 months old and we've just discovered he will have a little brother or sister to join him in April 2008. I blogged throughout my pregnancy with my son (and a pregnancy beforehand which sadly ended in miscarriage) and I want to do the same this time round. I want to remember it all and have a record for the new baby.

Eventually, if all things go well, the name of this blog will change. My son's blog is called 'Noodles'. His name is Noah and we call him Noah Noodles. The title just worked for a blog about him. When this baby is born we'll have to see whether it's a boy or a girl, and what his/her name is so I can change the name and template to suit them. For now it's named after me and anyone who knows me, especially my old blogging buddies, will understand why I chose a template with dragonflies!

So this is me. Beginning. Again.