Week 12

11+4

I'm feeling much better these days. No constant nausea. It's only the whiff of certain things that will turn my stomach and even then I don't always heave (although I did have to run to the loo all of a sudden a week ago and be sick).

I'm not so tired now either. It's nice. Even though Noah's been unwell and unsettled at night I've been getting to bed at a decent hour and sleeping well when asleep. It'll still take me an hour to get back to sleep when I give in to the urge to wee though!

I just feel so much more relaxed after seeing baby on the scan. Safe almost. It still feels early to tell people though. I don't know why. It seems strange thinking about telling people again but we have told a few more people. I'm not looking forward to all the 'Bet you'd like a girl' and 'what would you prefer?' comments. I honestly don't mind!!!! I'd love to have a girl as, after me always saying I'd like lots of children, I think this'll be the last one. It'd be nice to have a girlie daughter friend and to do the whole pink thing. At the same time I'd love another boy - we wouldn't have to buy too many clothes and money's tight, lol!! Also we have chosen a boy's name that we love and is almost definite (just have to ask somebody's permission, lol!!) but are still struggling with girl's name. I don't really want to call a child a name I just think is ok but will have to because I can't think of anything else!! I have my 20wk scan on 20th November and I just don't know whether or not to find out. Simon wants to but I can't decide. We found out what we're were having when expecting Noah but only as Mum was so poorly and wasn't sure if she'd survive until the birth and wanted to be able to bond with her grandchild while she could. Because we knew he was a boy, everything we bought for him is blue and boyish! We have very little neutral clothing! I don't want to buy stuff I don't need but I don't want my little girls first outfit to be an aeroplane babygro!!! Aaaaaaarrrrggh. It's hard!! If I did find out I'd want to keep it a secret from all the sticky-beaks but don't know if I could!